Late Post

March 14, 2019

Today I had the privilege of meeting a beautiful soul. She’s the kind of woman who walks in the room and radiates positivity and truth. A woman who knew me for three and half seconds before tears welled in her eyes. A confident human being who lets her quirkiness show without shame. A girl who connected with me. A mom. A wife. A free spirit. A lover. Am empath. A photographer. And so, so much more.

My new friend, Nikita, is going to be coming along beside us and documenting our journey through photography. My sweet sister-in-law, Sarah, is gifting us this experience. What a wonderful gift! My tribe is strong, and my village is mighty!

I had not considered photographing such intimate and in-depth details of this treacherous journey, and I’m honestly not sure how much I will be comfortable sharing. But, who knows? Nikita is known for making women feel like true warriors, and telling a story through pictures that rival any written words. Her work is breathtaking.

No matter what God’s plans for my family may be, there will be a record and testament for every step of the way. Ryan will know that her Mama fought through every valley and celebrated every mountain peak. She will see her Dada being a pillar of strength and courage. She will know the true meaning of “in sickness and in health.” She will see love and she will see Jesus.

Medical Stuff

The metallic taste is in full force. Blech! Finger tip neuropathy is consistent now. It was only hanging around for a day or so after chemotherapy, but now hasn’t subsided since Tuesday. Back pain is holding steady at a mild but manageable level. Hair… it’s going fast.

Emotions

The past two days have been pretty emotional. Luckily, it’s not from a place of darkness. I’m going to go out on a limb and say this is the normal roller coast of emotions that comes with a cancer diagnosis. This is what no one talks about. At least it’s not in any of the blogs and articles I’ve read over the past 44 days.

Emotions are real. You are entitled to feel however you feel without exception, without judgement, and without shame. No matter how negative or positive your feelings may be. What you are feeling is your truth. And it’s real.

I’ve learned over the years to embrace emotions, but also know that we shouldn’t allow emotions to dictate our direction. I have to make a choice every day, multiple times a day actually, to intentionally direct my thoughts and spirit back to Christ. Back to hope. Moments of weakness are built into my flawed human nature. Thankfully, Christ’s power is made perfect in weakness. (2 Cor. 12:9) How glorious is that news?!

Blessed

I still continue to be amazing by God’s daily blessings bestowed on my family and I. Thank you so much for fighting with us, and praying for us. It’s so refreshing to know that we have an army standing firm all around us.

All my love ~ Elizabeth